Why couldn't I have been born a bird? Maybe I was a bird in another life. Perhaps. Do you believe I could have been a bird? Do you believe in reincarnation? Do I? Hmm...
Today at band practice I found it difficult to concentrate. I found my eyes kept wandering back to the sky. It was such a beautiful blue color, and there were just the right amount of clouds. All different kinds of clouds. They looked so fluffy and inviting and calming and happy. It was another world of beauty. How I wished to be part of it. How I envy those with wings and feathers. With the ability to fly. Staring at the sky, I wanted to be part of it so badly, wanted to fly amongst the clouds so badly, that it literally hurt. I could feel a part of myself rip away from these human restrictions, and soar into the sky, weaving in and out of the clouds, only to come crashing back down and promptly rejoin the rest of my being. Upside-down of course. Now this all happened in the course of about a second or so. But it was still painful. My heart was in panic for a moment. But somehow it left a hint of a taste of what it'd be like to share the sky with the birds and the clouds. Not even a hint of a taste. Like a faded memory of a hint of a taste. If that makes sense.
Oh how I wish I could break free of all of these restrictions. The restrictions of being a girl. Of being a teenager. Of being human. Of life.
Freedom. That's what I want. Freedom. One little word that can taste so sweet.
Well now I know I'm just being silly. I am not a bird. I am a girl. I am a teenager. I am human. And I like it.
And I always say I want to do something with my life. I want to be something. Make a difference in the world. But first I have to break free. I have to break free and live my life for me. I've got to. I'll make something out of my life yet.
This has got me dreaming big and my hopes for the future continue to grow. This little girl from this little town is gonna be something big someday. I'll change the world, just you watch.
From the Sea of Feathers and Dreams,
Calli
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