I still think about it sometimes you know. Not as often though, and not the way I used to. It's weird, all I feel anymore is this overwhelming apathy with a faint sadness. It's like it was all a dream. I went back and read over some of my older posts and thought to myself, Did this really happen? Did I really feel that way? When I look at him, I try to remember how it used to feel, but I can't. I just don't remember. And sometimes I think I don't want to. It's just... Really strange to think about.

Track started today. I really hope the season will be great. I really hope this year will be great. In less than a month I will be at an awesome All Time Low concert. This summer, I really want to go to Warped Tour. I will hopefully learn the art of cymbals by the end of the summer. In less than a year I'll be in London with some of my best friends. In about a year, I will be in New York City. But again, this apathy is overwhelming. It's probably just because I'm exhausted, but I do hope it goes away in time for me to enjoy the last year and a half of my highschool career.