Can I just start over?

Not just with this blog. With everything.

With my friends. With the way I think. With this life. Everything will change and everything will be different. It has to be.

I'm actually making a conscious effort to not crash my car, and to do things with people. I have to much to live for. So many good times ahead. Friends that will actually care. It feels like it's been so long since I've felt like this.

And being on this site brings back so many memories. Feelings I thought I'd forgotten. And I want to cry and sing loudly at the same time for absolutely no reason. And I want to write a song about it, but I'm no good with words.

So I'll keep it all in. Because I can't decide whether I want complete strangers read know me, or my friends. Or maybe no one at all. Because I'm always so afraid that nobody will care, whether they know me or not. But it doesn't matter if they do. I want to write. I want to be able to write. I want to be one of those people who can't stop writing down their thoughts. But instead mine get lost so easily. This afternoon already feels like days ago.
I want to be able to remember who I was, so I know where not to go again.