My life's turned upside-down.
Meet me out past the train tracks. I'm leaving and not coming back. You're right and I was wrong; This town will be the downfall of us all.
I love A Day to Remember so much.
And it just goes to show that I'm not the same person I used to be. I'm not the same girl I was six months ago, or even one month ago.
That's it, isn't it. Time will always go on, it never stops. And we keep moving forward, pushing past whatever obstacles might get in our way. Always changing, and never really loosing sight of who we are, who we were, who we're meant to be. It's off in the distance, but the grass is green here as well. We're not in a hurry. We'll get there eventually. We needn't try as hard as we do.
Sometimes I think I want to fall in love. But whenever I picture it, it makes me feel uneasy, like it isn't right for me. Like maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I won't. But maybe I will. And maybe I do want to and maybe I should.
And maybe I'll prove everybody who ever had a doubt in me wrong, including myself.
Clinging to promises that I force meaning into. Telling myself that I'm good enough, that I'm amazing and beautiful - and believing it.
And I never want to sleep again.
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