venting

I'm so pissed off right now. And I don't know why. That's a lie, but oh well. It's like being pissed off but somehow in a good way.

I feel so restricted right now. Chained up to a wall; a prisoner of my thoughts. Something broke loose inside of me today. I don't know what or why, but everything is different now. I don't feel the same. I crave freedom. I need it. If I don't get it, I'll go insane. I'm shaking right now. I need to break free. I'm going to break free, somehow. Chop my hair off. Dye it purple. Jump off a bridge even though my mother told me I'm not allowed to. Run away for a day and drive to the beach with friends. Sneak out. Rebel.

I'll make something out of myself. And I'll do something with my life. It all goes by so fast, in a blur, like a speeding train. And when I look back on it all, I don't want to regret a thing.

I know I sound like a stupid teenager who is simply rebelling against her parents, but I don't feel that way.

From the Sea of Chains and Rebellion,
Calli