For everything.
Everything I've ever done to hurt or offend somebody.
And everything I have failed to do.
I don't know why I'm apologizing. I just feel like I should.
But it feels like I'm apologizing for being me.
And I hate that.
I spend so much time worrying about what's wrong with me. All of my major flaws. Trying to "fix" myself.
This happens in stages.
Sometimes I am fully me. Which includes flaws. And I'm ok with that. I'l happy like that. I don't want to be perfect.
But other times, what I want mixes with what everybody else wants. Who I am mixes with who everybody else is. I only see the negatives in myself.
It's happening again.
The waves are crashing over my head, the tide is washing me away.
And I can't breathe.
I'd love to say that I'll never change myself for anybody.
But you and I know that's not entirely true.
I fully believe that in the scheme of things, you can make up your mind to never change for someone else. And you can accomplish that.
ReplyDeleteThat is just my opinion, and is not meant to impose my views on you. I'm just letting you know that no one can MAKE you be anything, you choose to change for someone. So you can therefore choose to not change for someone, anyone else, as well.
Just keep in mind, I love you. And all that.