just when i think im out

They pull me right back in.

I was out.
I was out!
I was moving on, putting it behind me, recovering.

But I was never really out was I?

And I don't think I ever will be.

How much more can happen? I can't imagine anything else.

But still, I can't just kick somebody out of my life. No matter what they've done, I can't abandon them.
I care too much.
About everybody.

And I don't think anybody actually realizes how much this is affecting me. I'm terrified to trust anybody like that ever again. Scared to give anyone a chance. Afraid of just getting hurt again.

And I'm scared that nobody will think the effort it will take is worth it.


Did you know that November is the break up month?


Screw you November.

And good riddance.