why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong, in all the right ways
All my underdogs
We will never be never be anything but loud
And nitty gritty, dirty little freaks.

(Lately I've been in love with P!nk and her song Raise Your Glass, as well as Katy Perry's Firework.)

So much has happened in the 45 hours or so since I've last been on.

My Redhead came over for dessert on Thursday and spent the night for early shopping the next day. That night it really hit that my family is not even a family anymore. My brother and sister are not my brother any sister. They're different people.

I miss the sister that would play games with me and take me shopping.
I miss the brother that would always play with me and help me with school and sports. The kid who taught me how to punt a ball and never gave up on me.
I miss the family we once were.

We'll still have family moments that reflect that though. But they're only moments.

Thursday, I was the only one that helped out with making dinner. All three of us used to help out. But they just don't care anymore. My sister doesn't even consider this home.

Just because we've never exactly been a tight-knit group of people doesn't mean I want nothing to do with them. They'll always be my family, and I'll always love them.


Friday morning: Woke up at 3:15. AM.
It didn't kick in that we were actually going through with it until we were in the car.
But I think it was worth it. It was the most fun I've had in ages.

Walking around the mall half asleep. Chinese food samples at 6:30. Shopping and running into people (and creepers) we know. Beatles shirts and funny ornaments that made my day. ("Jingle my bells.") Playing Mario for half an hour in the middle of the mall (and getting really into it).

Then coming home and half-crashing. Watching The Blues Brothers, and old family favorite. Explosions of laughter ensue.
And of course, more shopping: Warehouse sale, digging through boxes and saving vests from thieves.

At the end of the day, I had spent over 24 hours with the girl, and wasn't sick of her yet.
I love that feeling.

And I honestly can't wait to for school on Monday.


So if you're too school for cool
And you're treated like a fool
You can choose to let it go
We can always, we can always
Party on our own...